2 more days..
It's the MA, the last paper of this academic year.
But.... I haven't been revising today...

I tried and tried...
But I can't.
I can't understand any of the questions attempted today.
Maybe they are hard too + I cannot concentrate.
I'm looking forward to tonight's puja.
It will be the first time for my participation in BUBS' full moon puja.
This time I'll be alone but I'm not afraid.
I know he'll be with me in my heart.

Btw, on Thursday, I went for the meditation class.
That was my very first meditation class.
I followed the instructions but I was a bit lost..
I don't know how to relax my mind.
I was trying to chase away the thoughts but cannot...
It's not supposed to chase them away but slowly let go, let go and let go.
But nvm...
Anyway, I prayed in my heart...

May they be free from disasters?
May they be free from pain?
May they be happy always??

I prayed again and again.

Sigh....
Failure!!
But nevermind.
I'll try again next thursday.

I hope the exam over fast....
So that I can do many other things.
Since I'm not being trusted for studying hard, so I don't care lah...
I have already gave in the best and I think the rest will depend on fate.
I shall do what we have promised to do though I'm alone.
We've promised to go for more talk, to go help people around, go for sports activities, read books in the bookstore etc etc

My Penang trip is gone, my UK trip is gone, my Jogoya buffet is also gone...
The only thing that is left with me is the promises that are not fulfilled yet.
I'm waiting... waiting and waiting.

I saw this in the mail from BUBS.
I would love to share with you.

Hate brings great misfortune,
ate churns up and harms the mind;
this fearful danger deep within
most people do not understand.
Itivuttaka 84