I'm taking unpaid leave tomorrow.

I'm so TIRED of work..
Stressed though I'm only a temp staff...

Seeing beloved RSM people tomorrow!!
Yeah yeah...

AP, CSK, LKF, LBT, JL, LAV, VC, TYY, CYH, WSL, FLH,
I miss you guys so much...
Muaks!!!
I hope you guys do as well!

To-Do-List:
1. Get my pants alteration done asap
2. Check out the metta in Brickfields
3. Go back to the optician asap
4. Finish one of the story book
5. Continue praying
6. Wake up earlier on Sunday!!!!
7. Update my CV
8. Buy Daddy shirt
9. Start searching for dress
10. Love myself and sleep well!!!

I am actually feeling down today..
But nevermind, I shall continue to dream on!

This is one of the day that I came home when I still see the sun...
Hehehehe...

I'm excited now...
I'm off tomorrow...
I don't have to wake up early tomorrow.

Happy happy... :)

I haven't been blogging for a week.
It's either I have nothing that I want to be remembered or I actually have too much and I don't have the time to write.

And..
Guess what..
It's the latter.

Pei Shan... the baby Princess was having some kind of changes in life.

I am having sort of "gaining" back of life, I think.
Honestly speaking, I don't sleep very well still...
But for the past one week, time flies..
And it's again SATURDAY..
Or to be more precise..
It's Sunday morning now and I'm still staying awake.

Short reminder for myself.
Fri (14th) - Farewell k-session for Vino. Damien was terribly sick! Eric and other branch managers/representatives were in Sunway for meeting and went over to DU later. Eric told me a very touching story.
Sat (15th) - Damien refused to go shopping with me :(
Sun (16th) - Spent most of the time sleeping at home. Went to The Curve getting pressie for Chi Yng. Didn't make it for the farewell gathering becaz it was being postponed to 9pm.
Mon (17th) - Chi Yng picked up her pressie from DU. Vino went to DU after her 1st day of work in Glenmarie. Sent Caren & Grace home after work.
Tue (18th) - Chi Yng flew off. Went for rountine follow-up in the morning and wasn't waiting too long. Did grocery before going back to the office and I bought the Buddha Statue, tape and chanting book.
Wed (19th) - My first Metta meditation class... Was quite enjoyable. Had V3 with me for one night.
Thurs (20th) - Late for the first time to class.. So embarrasing! Saw another HIM y.... Happy! But he's quiet.
Fri (21st) - Something happened to Grace... Felt sad for her.
Sat (22nd) - Worked... worked.. worked! Shopped.. shopped... shopped with my sis!! Spent.. spent and I'm broke.

Yesterday we had a farewell karaoke session @ Neway One U.
Sang for 6 and a half hours..
Was pretty fun..
And I got really mad!
I'm a certified Siao Za Po.
Left after 2am...
Reached home about 2.30am and went to bed about 3am.

Today...
I went back to the office to finish up the filing task.
Damien refused to accompany me to do some shopping.
So I'm back at home now.
I'm feeling lonely and sad.

Eric came to the office yesterday.
I haven't seen him since 2 years ago.
He is being stationed at Ipoh.
So yesterday all the branch managers and branch heads were around for meeting with the new management people and they went over to DU after the meeting.
He told me a story.
And the story is now "following" me everywhere.

I chased away the precious one with my words and attitude.

I'm crying about my fault.
I'm still missing him.

Just want to share a song with you guys..
It's by 李圣杰...
I think it says what I think.
But I really hope there is another chance though I know it has ended so long ago.


你最近　不说话怎麽了　
为什麽　是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱　有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合
也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束

不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

这一次我们都能很幸福




Dear Dear, I miss you a lot.
I'm still dreaming of you.

My recovering period is still going up and down.

I felt happy last thursday because I get to "see" something during meditation.
But on friday, I was down again.
Saturday, was working... don't have much to do.
Sunday, I was working too.. I worked till 1030pm....
I was so tired.

Yesterday, things went bored....
And it was a full moon day.
I was trying to be happy.
But things didn't go well.
Not only not well.... It was bad.
Though my sis are back from Hong Kong and they bought me something...
But it doesn't help.
Saw someone and it reminds me of a lot of thing.

Today...
There were some annoying people calling and there were some annoying customers again.
And it's raining.
Current mood: Down.

I am feeling so down today.

I really have no idea what I'm doing.
I just want to occupy myself with work....
I stayed till 9pm last night in the office to do filing.
This morning I was busy doing filing too..
Because nobody wants to do them, so I just do lah.

There is a very annoying calling today.
Was looking for someone but the someone is not in our company and he was telling me "We are making him very pissed".
I tell you..
He is making us very pissed too...
Just because 1-2 years ago, he bought a very expensive phone, now he is making complaint and everybody in the office is like so scare of him. Like treating him as Agong.
But please lah...
The phone is no longer under warranty and we are giving you free service, this is very very very very very good edi.
And today, if you want to sell your phone, I don't think anybody wants it.
Better throw into the sea lah!

Please, friends...
Don't act as if "Customer is always right".
Understand others' feeling too!

It's the beginning of the 3rd Quarter of 2006.
Yes!
I spent one month time doing nothing.

I hope it's a new beginning.
I'm trying to gain back my life.

I have my spiritual advisor now...
He is helping me a lot...
Without his advice, I don't think I can pick up my life by pieces and pieces..
He is Bro Teoh..
I think I'm meeting his daughter in the future..
Probably in S'pore in September.

3rd Quarter of 2006 Resolution:
I want to be more pleasant.
I want to be able to cope with all stresses and conditions.
I want to be able to control my emotion.
I want to get away from being moody.
I want plenty of smile on my face.
I want to be UNDERSTANDING!