today i feel a little insecure.

if you know me well enough, you'll know my current relationship is actually leading me to no where.
it's not that we do not have the common goal.
it's our background.

i really mean it.
even the day i die, i still will not sign the piece of paper in MALAYSIA!!!!
there is a huge reason behind it.

so
i'm not entitled to be categorised as MARRIED.
i'm not entitled to share his property if he has any.
i'm not entitled to have kids with father.
i'm not entitled to be NORMAL.

today, i'm feeling a little dark about the future.
because, i want INSURANCE.

i also want a wedding which everyone can stand up and shout "yum seng"..... and cheers for me.
but it seemed like, it's very far for me.

i can only see that in the dream.

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i'm back from holiday.
sorry for not informing.
i was away for 4 days since friday.

i had good time in singapore.
but of cause, i spent a lot!!

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is not an easy subject that everybody is interested to talk about.
and it happens to be.... i know 4 different individual is getting married.
or to be precise, one of them is legally married and if you know her, she is Heng Pei Pei.
this girl has actually started her plan after CNY but she only announced last week...
and the reason is she is scared if anything goes wrong in between.

anyway, congratulations to all of you.
but don't get me wrong, i'm not jealous.
i'm just too excited.
so many people around me is getting married.


i'm attending my cousin's wedding this coming saturday in singapore.
and yeah, i have a lame reason to shop.
but i heard the thing over there is more expensive dee.
plus now.. the exchange rate is already 2.40.
thanks to all the political news and people is so worried about the market and even the ringgit value.

sigh...
and tomorrow, it's a monday again.

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i've watched the dark knight yesterday at pavilion.

and guess what... i din know the name of the show until i've finished.
very simple, it's because i was not the one who purchased the tickets.
lame hoh...

well... nvm.
it was a good show.
it was so long.
approximately 2 and a half hour.
the time of the show was 6.30pm but we finished after 9pm.
haven't been sitting in the cinema for so long.
not for kungfu panda, not for get smart, not for wanted, not for hancock.

catch it when you can.
it's worth watching.
at least, you can a comfy seat with air-cond.

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finally, i'm relieved.

ha ha ha....

i will survive in the so-called politic.
i will take up the challenge.

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time flew..
and it's july.


i'm glad we have make it for the 6th month.
we have been through a lot but not very much yet.

i know, there is more obstacle to come.
we have to be strong in the relationship.
i hope the bond between us will be stronger...
i hope we can be there for each other always.

i just love to spend my time with you in the future.
but if, your heart has ever moved out from me, then please leave.


thanks for everything and bringing me all the babies.
i love you.

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it's just simple to describe me in a word - failure.
i'm not an ordinary man.

my jokes are never funny.
i always do things the other way round.
i want it fast but i make it slower.

i'm just stupid.
i'm just a failure.

i'm sad to be a defective seed from my parents.
they make a successful baby that come in a piece.
but i grow up in the wrong way.
they try to send me the best for everything.
but i absorbed the lousiest.

i cried so hard.
i wake up again and i don't know what to do.
starting to have fear at work.
starting to have fear talking.
starting to have fear smiling.

i'm about to run away.
the only reason that i can sleep last night is because i cried.
i doubt if i can sleep tonight and every other night.

i'm sorry.
i made your shirt wet.
i made you worried about me.
i spoiled your dinner with tze yuin.
i screwed up the beginning of the short holiday.

and you have review with the bosses tomorrow......
i'll be fine.
the babies will teman me when you are not home.

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finally, today marks ending of the training....
and i'm contended.

i learn something...
so you guys don't try to cheat me and create story and tell me...

I WILL KNOW!

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ever since i've started working..
i've never work on weekend.


but today and tomorrow, i have to return to office..
because of TRAINING.


i dun hate although... i felt a lil reluctant to wake up in the morning.
i know i need some soft skills in the job.
seriously, i was so upset on thurs.
banker shouted at me.
but what to do... i get paid to be scolded.
it's just a job to train myself.
i have to admit, i'm someone with very low patience level.
and i'm in a field which requires lots of pleasing job.
perhaps, more skills and training will help me.

i promise myself, i don't want to bring home whatever happened at work.
i don't own the company.
i don't own the bank.
the profits don't come straight to my pocket...
all that i want is a job.. that helps me to build my career.
i need technical knowledge.
i need softskills.


but after all, i need someone to love me at home.
i don't want to affect him.
i don't want to affect our relationship.
it's never easy for you to find someone that you live comfortably with.
i think he is the one.
and he is willing to send me to training early in the morning.

thanks boy.

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is like shit.

i'm cutting down in rice consumption.
and to be honest, i'm a "fan tong".
if i din get to eat rice for more than 24 hrs, i'll feel very frustrated.
so i only can eat half a bowl of rice a day now.

and another thing, i'm so scared of KFC.
almost every EBG that i go to has an KFC nearby and that is considered the nearest and most reasonable price food that i can go for lunch with the staffs.
i'm so sien with KFC.

i still have to work hard to lose weight.
i'm just too fat.

but say whatever you want....
i don't care.
i want to live a happy-go-lucky life.
but don't come and cari pasal with me.
i'm gonna give you an interesting reply.

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for the past 2 weeks...
this incident came to my mind.

i used to have this very very close friend.
but today, we are not talking to each other anymore.

it is my fault.
according to her, she was jobless.
and she got upset when i was complaining to her about my job.
she can't take it.

she has never confronted to me until the day i realised she avoided me.
and today, she is still avoiding me.

back in 5 years ago, we were like so closed.
we shared.... we laughed..... we cried together.
but now, no more.

i'm not even invited to a best friend's brother's wedding.

i'm sad.
i have to admit, it's my fault.

but back to reality.... i have to move on.
i have one lesser bestie...
but i have learnt a lesson.

your bestfriend may not want to share everything with you.

perhaps, the current 2 will still listen to my crap, share my rubbish and will always stand by me.

and at the same time, i do not want to get too attached to him.
i scare i'll lose him if i'm holding him too tight.

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