Yesterday, I went for the full moon puja but there were only 5 of us...
Nevermind...
I still put in effort to chant and to pray for all!
The Bro Robert was giving a short talk about challenges..
He gave real life examples ie Gold & Petrol...
I can't afford to buy them now and the price will keep on increasing.
So in the future maybe I'll become a poor girl that has nothing due to inflation rate.
Nevermind...
I prefer to build the merits...
Doing other thing to fulfill my spiritual needs..
At least it helps!

Yesterday, I was talking to my girlfriend, Angela for 2 hours.
I sincerely thank her for her words, support and her time spent with me.
I told her everything all over again...
Yes... Definitely she agreed that it was my fault.
But there is something nobody sees here.
It's something he did but he did not bare the consequences.
I don't want to say anything else...
But what he did is worsening the condition between me and a few people.
Or in fact.. his condition with this "few people" become worse.

I don't how you guys settle problem.
But usually if I did something wrong, I'll bare it myself.
I know by asking people to solve for me, there will be more trouble.
Please bare in mind, be responsible for anything you did no matter what happen.
For all this while, no matter what I did, I tried to solve it by myself.
And now.. when I'm trying to solve it, I'm not given a chance to do it anymore.
Nevermind...
Time will tell!!
I did put in effort to understand and think...
But the only thing I didn't do was to control my emotion.
Sorry lah...
For all this while, you should have known this.
You know my emotion goes up and down.
You should know I'm not doing them in purposed.

I can still remember, during this HK Annual Film Award, Zhou Xun won the best actress.
In her speech, she thanked her bf for accepting her bad temper when she was filming in Perhaps Love.

This thing told me...
If one really love you, s/he would accept all of you.

I was trying to accept all...
Trying to coordinate with all the thinking.
But... They are not important again.
I was awarded 2 words : Unbearable & Unbelievable
For me to continue to search for my life alone.
For my unbearable and unbelievable words and action and attitude, I apologise.
I was not mean to do them to hurt you too.

Nevermind.

Time will tell.
I can just control my temper and emotion.
I don't hate, I don't dislike.
I'll wish you well.