it's my lunar bday today..
and i'm spending my day alone...
to think about myself.

the commitment-less life suits me...
because...
i'll never get disappointment with no expectation.

happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to the blur blur blur me.
happy birthday to me!

thanks mummy...
i was officially 22nd on Oct 2nd.
but today..
i am officially 23rd .... in the chinese/lunar calendar!
you always like make me another year older than others.
heheheh!

sometimes i have no idea what i really want in life.

i'm just blur..
or i'm just stupid..
or i'm just happy in my little thought... missing people that will not appear in my life anymore.

yeah.. i think i'm all 3 of the above.
and damn it..
i like partying now...
shit shit shit!!
but no drinking involved!!

i think i am mad..
what a messy life i have...

i am in a hyper-mood now..
too much of uncomplete tasks...

- haven't started the proposal and the budget
- cv not updated yet
- cover letter haven't drafted
- vest belum siap
- homework not done
- etc etc etc

so much more to be done... but i'm heading off now to do one of them 1st....

ciao!

i'm relieved.

if i were to be given a choice....
i am sure to speak my preference.
why?
because if condition allows, i do not mind to speak my mind.
but if condition does not allow, then i will not.

you may call me the freak.
i do not mind.
and i can't control what you think.

:p

i learnt something from the conversation..

now that i've came to learn to let go... and move on.
but you didn't.
you are still angry at me, i think.
you are still standing there and never move on, i think.

(what made me think like that? my thought are based on what you said.)

now i think, i am a little wiser.
but i still have rooms for improvement.
thanks for leaving me in the past.
you saw my true colours 2 years ago and now that i see yours.
you are still the same.

i don't have the angry moster in me anymore...
but i saw it in you!

finally...
i'm happier than i was.
it's not because i'm spending money to spoil myself or etc etc etc.
it's because i learn to LEARN and LET GO and MOVE ON and ACCEPT.


before this
you made me think that i am the only one that made all sorts of mistakes.
you made me think that i am the only one that has to be responsible for what happened.
you made me think that you are the nicest of all.
you made me think that you are the most understanding of all.
you made me think that i can rely on you for the rest of my life.
you made me think that i would change for "our" future

now
you make me think that maturity is not everything, after all.
you make me think that qualification is not important.
you make me think that being responsible doesn't mean you are the best.

but still
you are still making me to think that i am the one that made all sorts of mistakes
and
you are still making me to think that you are still blaming at me (only)... and never let go!

i know it was my fault for demanding more than 100% from you.
i know it was my attitude that drove you to the wall.
and i always apologise to you.
to forgive me or not, it's up to you.

i just hope that you will reach the stage that you are not living with what happened in the past.
please don't let the after effect be with you for ever.
i will not be responsible for that.
you have to be responsible for yourself than blaming others over and over and over again.

and now i know why.... i met them...
it's KARMA...
making me to accept things as they are...
to be accommodating, to be undestanding, to be not-demanding.

thanks for the blessing in disguise.
that's the greatest gift i have.

till then, i'll still miss your gentleness, maturity, consideration
and the sweet memory we had.

:)

First of all, i want to say... RAINY DAYS PLS GO AWAY!!!!
I dislike rainy days....
They are making me feeling down...
Thus my mood swings... (That's what I think)

Secondly.... I love KL when it's holiday!!
I woke up late today because I slept late.. Really late!
I told myself "Shit!! I'm sure to be late for class.."
But when I left my house, I realise the street is quiet.... Not many cars on the road.
Suprisingly when I took the exit at Damansara (NKVE), there is no jam!!
The traffic was smooth.
People, thank you very much for not being in town....
I love the smooth traffic...
More holiday for you make me feel good.

And then... it's a free-parking-day!!
Noone is at work...
So we've got free parking!!
Yeah yeah!
Hopefully it'll still be the same... :)

And about the decision making thingy...
There is "a" decision as I expected how it would be.
I will be strong and tough!

I still have dreams to achieve in the future!!

Prince, I'm coming!!!
Wait for me...

It took me a few days to think about "that"..
And I really make myself calm when come to making the decision.

I know I didn't appreciate what I had in the past but now... I'm trying to be the most understanding I can... I'm trying to fill my time without depending on others... I'm trying to give in and to be more accommodating. But I found out... Not everyone needs you to be like that. They just don't bother what you did for them. Because.. they just simply... don't need you to be like that!!!

My biggest quesiton.. WHERE IS THE LOVE??

What's wrong with the world mama?
People living like aint got no mamas
I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma
Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin
In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And if you hatin you're bound to get irate
Yeah madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
You gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?
(where is the love)
(the love)

It just ain't the same all ways have changed
New days are strange is the world the insane?
If love and peace so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations dropping bombs
Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
With ongoing suffering
As the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving really strong?
So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
With this world that we living in
People keep on giving in
Makin wrong decisions
Only visions of them livin and
Not respecting each other
Deny thy brothe
The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover
The truth is kept secret
Swept under the rug
If you never know truth
Then you never know love
Where's the love y'all?
(I don't know)
Where's the truth y'all?
(I don't know)
Where's the love y'all?

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father father father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?
(where is the love)
(the love)

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm getting older y'all people get colder
Most of us only care about money makin
Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema
Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality
Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes
I'm feeling under
That's the reason why sometimes
I'm feeling down
It's no wonder why sometimes
I'm feeling underI gotta keep my faith alive, until love is found

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?
(fade)

OH man....
Where is the love??




I need a good rest... before I walk on again...
:)

Funeral is done...
And the 3 youngest ladies in the family decided to brush away the unhappiness for a while.
And... we haven't gone out before.
I mean... only the 3 of us.
I'm glad that we make it for the first time and I'm sure there are many to come....

We went for k-session @ Neway, 1U.
And we had a 6-hr long singing marathon.
But of cause we paid twice... and we shifted upstairs.
We want cordless mic and private washroom.


Random picks


Cousins - Candy and May


Candy and yours truly


She is only the little red hot chilli pepper.... and yours truly


I tell you... whenever I go for K-session, the table must be very very messy
Does this happen to you too?


She is not taken yet.... Interested pls let me know...


The 3 of us


Yours truly in action


taken by the staff

It was a tiring day, yesterday...
Sent my uncle off...
For his last journey...
For his last farewell!
Everyone was so serious...
Everything is done and back to aunt's place about 4...
Then we had lunch there...

Got back and bathed and was planning for my dinner.
Hehehehe!!
I was craving for dessert...
And my makan-kaki is willing to spare his studying time for eating with me...

Chit GeGe, thank you so much.....
It's my pleasure to have your great company.

Now let me show you what we ate...
I made the order...
and we had Set 2 with Creamy Mushroom Cheese Fondue.


Creamy Mushroom Cheese Fondue with Deep Fried Chicken Fillet, Veggie, Bread, Cracker and Biscuits @ RM 29.90++


The big portion of chicken fillet...
I like brocolli but there is so little..
The celery is good when u dip them with cheese.
It's like how you have celery with Fridays' Buffalo Wings and the sauce!!

I'm a veggie lover now... but i still eat a lot of meat...
I am now craving for rib-eye....
SHIT!!!
I'm actually on diet.
Cannot think cannot think....



I like the biscuit the most among them...


Oh.... Such a big pot of cheese...
Sinful!!!


How I messed with the chicken and cheese...
Wwahahahaha!!

FYI, they are having promotion till the end of the month.
You get a chocolate fondue for free with any purchase of fondue.


Chocolate fondue...

(Note: Somebody said he can make chocolate fondue too... I'm still waiting but I have yet to receive the invitation loh....)


Don't expect too much since it's free.
They are enough to keep your mouth shut!


topping.... choco powder.. peanut and coconut.


Oh... the chocolate fondue is heavenly....
If you know me well, I'm one that does not fancy sweet choco...
And this chocolate is never too sweet... I love it!!
This is one of the few that can make me feel that I'm in love!!


Look.... My strawberry dipped with chocolate!!!


Wait wait....
Divert from the topic first...
I wanna ask...
Should I keep my hair long or I should cut them short again?


Makan-kaki, Chit GeGe


The left over....
Can't manage to finish it...
Jelak liao!!


Baby Princess forgot about to take care of her appearance ("yi-tai") when comes to food...


FYI, I finished up the whole pot of chocolate....
I'm blessed that we were not given a bigger pot... Hahahaha!!!

I'm now fatter after this meal.
More work out for me!!

Okay..
It has been a while since my last swearing..
And here it goes...

I was in a good mood...
But till 5 mins ago...
I turned into a devil...
A real mad devil!

I tried to accept that it's okay for others to drink...
I kept telling myself... "It's okay... No harm drinking, as long as they still do the right thing."
But I can't convince myself anymore.
I'm better off alone than carrying on thing like this.

If only you know how much time Mr-X has spent with me in the past, you would have said that I am becoming more independent.
I didn't want it to be mine all the time...
I am just asking for a lil time to do some talking but I was told that I am very annoying and others need time for holiday.
But farker!! I was not the one who called, ok?
Okay.. Since you, the farking friend said that I'm so annoying and if he agreed too....
Then ok... It is my fault again.

I try not to be an anti-drinking freak but now, I have to.
I hate those bloody idiots that are drunk and start saying hurtful words or even fight.

I'm sorry!!
I'm hurt...
and I hate myself for being such a bitch.
But I do want my self-respect.

I don't want life like that anymore.
Please don't make me stay if you are not standing by me and you are not trying to understand me.
I absolutely need one that is willing to stand by me no mater what happen in the future.
I absolutely need one that is willing to trust me!

Hey Hey....
Happy Deepavali..
May you have a peaceful deepavali.

Why do I use the word peaceful?
It's because there maybe fire crackers around... like at my place..
I can't say it's annoying... because during CNY, we might do that too...
We might.. not we must do that, ok???

And even it's CNY... I find it very annoying because some people actually still playing fire crackers at 4am...
Mad kah??
No need to sleep huh?

Okay..
Let me tell you how was my deepavali day..

Woke up late... because I slept late..
Stayed up to 5am to work on the template for my blog...
Hahahah!!
Others might take 1 hour to get things done.. but for people like me who has no knowledge in html etc etc... need to edit for thousands of times for the simple thing like ur looking at now.

Went for movie..
I wanted to watch John Tucker Must Die... but Chit GeGe wanted to watch The Prestige... So we watched the latter.
About the movie...
I give it a 4 out of 10...
I almost fell asleep.
The most interesting part is the ending...
Because I didn't expect it to be like that!
And... it was a mess in the middle of the show....
Jump from here to there... then there to another there..
You get what I mean??
Personally, I don't get what I'm talking about..
So it was a mess for me!
:þ

Dinner at Little Vietname..
I was craving for hot and spicy food...
Hehehehe!!


Tri-colour drink??
The colour is not that obvious loh!!


Spicy soup beef laifun... yummy yummy!!
I'll add the whole plate of sambal into the soup...
To spice up my life.....


Lemongrass chicken chop rice!
This is good...
The marinated chicken taste great...


Let me tell you who I met today..
I met Salina (again)... But this time we met in GAP!!
GAP is now open in One U located at Highstreet Ground Floor!!!
Their stuffs are quite ok...
But I am terribly broke...
Maybe I'll consider to get myself a pair of new jeans later in Novemeber.

Then I met Lin Shuin or you prefer to call him Alex, in Zara...
OH.. He is my senior in school... and he was Salina's group leader in the prefectorial board.

Then then...
I saw Sea Ling... But I think she didn't see me...
And I saw Liu Fang...
and Steven.... my ex-colleague!

Gosh!!
I met so many people on the same day.
Imagine... I saw only 5...
I think there was more.... just that I didn't see them only...
Because, as usual, I'm too blur!!
And the 2 people up there saw me long ago before I saw them..
Hahahah!!!
I am slow...
and not observant...

Give you an intro about us, UOL Accounting Club.
We always work on charity events, to raise funds for those who need it and also for our club usage.
This year, we have a brand new event.
And we are working with SPCA for the event.

FYI, SPCA simply means Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals.

We sold NIPS and merchandise from SPCA...

Day 1 : DSA, 5th Floor, Wisma HELP

The Tian Sheng Yi Dui - Sim Ling & Wen Bin


Wai Shien-Sim Ling-Wen Bin-June


The banner is cute...

Day 2: KPD Block A

Briefing


Gary-WenBin-June getting ready for promotion in class


Wai Peng and myself


Generous bunch!!


Me... trying to be cute under the hot sun!


Jin Joe...
Don't you think he looks like Andy Lau in Love on A Diet??


random pics


Sim Ling and myself


Look at the words I'm pointing at!


Group Pic 1


Group Pic 2


Group Pic 3


Gary and myself


DSA staff - Max and myself

I wasn't around for Day 3 because I was off to S'pore...
But this event is one fo the most sucessful one so far, by only selling chocolates and their merchandise.
Representative Of SPCA said that this is the most sucessful fund-raising in colleges.

Thanks all for supporting our event.
Without your support, the dogs and cats will be homeless!!!

Dear all,

My uncle passed away today in the morning at home.
I think he has got a stroke because he is bleeding from the nose.
My cousins called the ambulance and they arrived and gave him CPR but it's too late.
Nothing can be done.

I send my deepest condolences to my aunt and cousins.
Hopefully they can stand strong.

And of cause I'll be helping out too....
Hehehe!!
A good reason for me to skip class...

And FYI, I've been putting on too much weights and I've received COMPLAINTS!!!!
Better work it out and eat less..
Goodbye to Nasi Lemak.
Goodbye to fast food.
Goodbye to fattening food...

But I think I"ll be attacking fondue still during this Deeparaya!

Erm..
I'm not too sure how much I'm into it this time.
But I cry for it!!!

Sometimes I'm very happy with the little things...
Sometimes I got so sad with some other things too...
Am I mad?
I guess so!!!

I remember that last time... I wanted to get married young.
But now... hmmm... I'm not too sure leh...
Maybe yes, maybe no.
It depends on who THE ONE is.
If he is filthy rich, then of cause I don't mind to get married young.
Then, I can continue to study again.
Study... is always the thing I like the most.
Wait... study doesn't mean reading and exam ok?
I enjoy being a student.
Hehehehehe!
A housewife or I should use the term HOMEMAKER (sounds cooler) that is a part-time student quite cool rite?


Or....
Another choice.
Erm.... Marrying a guy that is not very very very rich but affordable.
Then I'll consider to have my own career too.
Hehehehe!!!
I want to be a sucessful woman!!
Look, I use the word WOMAN!!!
That means I give myself time to achieve it.
There is no return without any investment.
This one sounds moderate and easier to achieve because I know I don't have the fate to meet filthy rich guy.
And I'm scare of the rich family's tradition as seen in the TV.


Or...
I shall consider being single if I don't get to find THE ONE!!!
It's very hard to meet THE ONE in life.
But I know for certain people, they've found theirs easily.
I'm not jealous...
because I am still young.
I'm not sure if I would still say the same thing 3 years later.
Hehehehehe!!!


Do I have more options??
I can't think of any now.
Give me some ideas... so I can dream more every nite.

My ex told me to DREAM ON!!!
He said sometimes thing starts with dream....
Hahahah...
I'm not sure if he is being sarcastic or what.
But the Baby Princess always like to dream.

:)

Sekian, terima kasih!

I'm blogging in the library...
I haven't been doing this for so long....

And I'm on MSN Web Messenger!!
Hahahah...
I love friday, though I have super early class at 8 and I have 3 hours of break in between.
My next class starts at 1pm and will be ending at 2.30pm.
Why do I love friday?

It is simply because I can stay in the library and not thinking of going home immediately after class....
Usually I don't go to the libary until my exams are like 1-2 months away.
Hehehehe!!
This shows how lazy I am.

It's my birthday again..
Time flies and it's another year again!!!

I wish myself a very happy birthday.

Thanks Caren, Chit Ge Ge, Kuo Sing, Li Fu, Charmaine, Katherine, Wilson Ow, Wilson Chang, June, Wai Shien, Grace, Kent, Angela Phan, Sok Yee, Li Wei, Audrey, Chi Yng, Chee Chung, See Sheen, Tob Tob for the text wishes....

Thanks Edmund for calling all the way to wish me!!!

Thanks Damien, Edward, Joo, Daniel and the rest for the suprise!!!

I love the pressie given too...

Thanks for making it my day!!!

I hope my wishes come true too....

I love you guys so much!
Muaks Muaks!!