mummy...

it marks 3 yrs today!!
and i miss you dearly!!

i always wonder if you would be able to see what i'm doing now.
how good if you are still taking care of me now.
i know you will not let me drown.
i know you will pray for me too if you know that i'm having this 'critical' condition.
don't worry, i will be strong.
i will take care of myself.

thanks for bringing me up in the conservative thinking.
i learnt and found my way.
i know i'm not one that get attracted easily to luxury goods.
i know the limit.
i can hold myself strong when there are temptations.
i behave.... and tell myself... not to be materialistic but realistic.
things don't come free...
there is a price to pay, so judge the value.
don't make a decision and you'll be regret about that.

i don't know what i want.
nothing exactly makes me happy.
but i enjoy every seconds i have now... making people around me happy.

i'm glad that i have some good friends around to share my problems..
but still, i'll not want them to worry much about me.
they have more things to worry about themselves.

i have to be independent.
i don't like relying on others anymore though i know i'll be happy if there is a man taking care of me.
but how far things can lead me to?
i don't know.

i'm still a girl searching for dream...
i just want to be happy.
i don't know if you ever see a son-in-law.
but if you don't, i hope you will still bless me... to be happy.

i love you.
i miss you.

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