had lunch with vincent today.
brought him to tmn desa for my fave fish head noodles.
i can't remember when was the last time i saw him.
it must be years ago.
he reminds me of our good old days - the DEF Jan 2002 and DE July 2002.
chatted for hours...
but it was really fun!!!
vincent, i hope you had fun too!


come to think about my life, i'm not sure if i'm lucky or i'm not.
looking at my friends, there are some, really having much better lives than me.
not worrying about job, money, life etc etc.
but there are some, they have so much commitment that - i don't even know how they live their lives.
i'm telling myself, there is nothing to be jealous about.
karma will lead my way.
i'll be fine as long as i believe in it.


i can't remember how many times that i have fallen down.
and each time i fall, i learnt something new.
but please!!! i try not to fall anymore.
it's not easy to climb all the way up again.
i'm old dee...
i wanna be realistic about life.
i do not want to make any wrong decision anymore.
i do not want to tear over small thing anymore.
i do not want to waste time thinking over insignificant matter.
well, sound sad but it's the truth.


When you know thing does not happen the way you want it to,
you accommodate, you change, you adapt, you will do anything and everything you can....
trying to make it work.
but when you realise, IT WILL NOT be the way you want it to,
you will not put in effort anymore.


i have to admit.
i have changed.
when i know thing is not going to work out, i will leave silently.
it's not only about a relationship btwn a boy and a girl.
it happens, even in friendships.
you know when your friends are avoiding you, and you know, they do not want to keep in touch with you anymore.


i'm very sad when my friend does not want to meet up with me.
i'm very sad when my friend does not being close to me anymore.
but i know i can't force her.
i shall just leave her alone.
i shall just go on with my life.
i shall just let it be...


well....
cannot be sad.
new year.. new beginning... new resolutions....
my no 1 mission - do not be sad. do not get angry over small matter.
oh ya, iris said 'cannot scold people'.
okay... i do not want to scold people unless they are being too much.


i know i'm repeating this everyday.
but i really love you so much, friends.
i'm glad that you are still my friends.

may you be well and happy always!

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