just do a quick update before meeting up with friends.

this somebody has finally disappear.
i will never see this somebody in my life anymore.
why? because this somebody does not want to talk to me anymore.

i cried my heart out last night on the bed.
the heart stopped beating for once.
i can't feel the feeling anymore.
my tears have never stopped.
i keep asking myself 'why'

how could i be so blinded?
how could i be so stupid?
how could i be so cruel?
how could i be so slow?

i've been living in denials for some time.
and today i step out to see the world.
i observed the crowd.
i observed the love.

it will take me quite a while to know the meaning of 'love'.
it will take me quite a while to laugh from the heart again.
it will take me quite a while to show you the sweetest smile that i can make it.
it will take me really quite a while to forget.

for the past few months, i got angry.. but i forget them..
but to wrap up everything... though i'm not angry, but i still want to forget.

i want to MOVE ON!
i want to IMPROVE!
i want to ADVANCE!

mind it.. it's MIA kay.

i shall not afraid to be lonely.
i hope i can make it before CNY.
i shall forget everything..... everything.

sorry for not being the best for you.
i do not deserve to be loved by you.
sorry for not leaving you enough of space to breathe.
i do not deserve to be given any chance anymore.

sorry for not being understanding enough.
i do not deserve to be forgiven.
sorry for pressuring you again and making you shouted at me.
i do not deserve to be remembered by you.

goodbye love...
goodbye fairytales...
goodbye memories...
goodbye dearest you...

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