i do not know how many of you do not like me.
i do not know how many of you think that i am a bitch.
i do not know how many of you complain about my words and attitude.
i do not know how many of you want me to fail in life.

but i know

i do not live for you.
i do not need you to contribute to my happiness.
i do not want to curse about you.
i do not want the unhappy things to happen to you.

all that i have learnt today is

i do not want to take it so hard anymore.
i just want to be simple.
i do not want to scream about life.
i just want to be happy.

i know it is never easy to live life just like it is everyday.
but i need to move on and look forward.
i know it is never easy to please everybody.
but i need to accept and let go.

i hope every other day that i wake up
i will still see the sunshine.
i hope every other day that i live
i will still see the world.

i'm sorry if i haven't been reaching an agreement with you.
i'm sorry if i haven't been nice and true to you.
i'm sorry if i have spoken the very harsh words to you.
i'm sorry if i have taken you for granted.

i sincerely apologise.
no matter if you forgive me or you do not,
yours truly thanks you for everything you have done.
yours truly is gratitude to have known you as friends.

if one day i am no longer around,
i wish you will remember my lousiness, auntiness, craziness, kan-cheong-ness, rants, swearing, childish thinking.
i do not mind if i have nothing good to be remembered,
but as long as you remember.

i am very forgetful.
i do not remember the bad things.
but i know if i'm lying forever, i will not know anything anymore.
so what happened in the past, it does not matter anymore.

every day is a new lesson.
i have flipped to the new chapter.
it is really up to you to love or to hate now.

:)

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