i learnt something from the conversation..

now that i've came to learn to let go... and move on.
but you didn't.
you are still angry at me, i think.
you are still standing there and never move on, i think.

(what made me think like that? my thought are based on what you said.)

now i think, i am a little wiser.
but i still have rooms for improvement.
thanks for leaving me in the past.
you saw my true colours 2 years ago and now that i see yours.
you are still the same.

i don't have the angry moster in me anymore...
but i saw it in you!

finally...
i'm happier than i was.
it's not because i'm spending money to spoil myself or etc etc etc.
it's because i learn to LEARN and LET GO and MOVE ON and ACCEPT.


before this
you made me think that i am the only one that made all sorts of mistakes.
you made me think that i am the only one that has to be responsible for what happened.
you made me think that you are the nicest of all.
you made me think that you are the most understanding of all.
you made me think that i can rely on you for the rest of my life.
you made me think that i would change for "our" future

now
you make me think that maturity is not everything, after all.
you make me think that qualification is not important.
you make me think that being responsible doesn't mean you are the best.

but still
you are still making me to think that i am the one that made all sorts of mistakes
and
you are still making me to think that you are still blaming at me (only)... and never let go!

i know it was my fault for demanding more than 100% from you.
i know it was my attitude that drove you to the wall.
and i always apologise to you.
to forgive me or not, it's up to you.

i just hope that you will reach the stage that you are not living with what happened in the past.
please don't let the after effect be with you for ever.
i will not be responsible for that.
you have to be responsible for yourself than blaming others over and over and over again.

and now i know why.... i met them...
it's KARMA...
making me to accept things as they are...
to be accommodating, to be undestanding, to be not-demanding.

thanks for the blessing in disguise.
that's the greatest gift i have.

till then, i'll still miss your gentleness, maturity, consideration
and the sweet memory we had.

:)