i'm actually searching for the light.
the light that will brighten my life especially it's almost the darkest part of the life.
i don't think i've found the light.
but i am still looking forward..

it will take me a while.

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i admit..
i am the poorest loser.

i had a reason to keep my hair.
i had a reason to look forward.
i had a reason to make sure i am good.
i had a reason to change my mindset.

but mind you... it's i had.
and today... the reason is no longer a valid reason for me to do so.
shall i still keep going?
or shall i just u turn?

i like you more than i do.
i know you are hinting me that you have moved on.
sorry for being stupid.
i know good things wait for noone.

i'm not hating you for not waiting.
i can only put you in the heart.
i don't mind to do all for you here so long you are happy.
but i am not seeing you anymore.

i'm sorry.

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最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过

我知道你看不明白
但我也知道你已经没再上来了

我知道我也许不能再看见你
所以我只能用我和你的合照做墙纸

没有你在我的身边
我只好每天看着那合照
怀念着那暧昧的过去

这一次我真的比失去更难受

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i am famous for being forgetful.
i can't remember much about the past.
i do not know why.
it could be the reason, the inner self choose not to remember the unhappy one.
or the memory faded off as time goes by.

i was putting my things on the new furnitures.
i found these v-day cards, bday cards, new year cards etc etc
when i opened up and read them, it reminds me of the past.
i wasn't sad.
but i was smiling....
telling myself, people move on.

over the conversation with a friend today, i brought up this name.
i was saying i am not seeing this person.
i do not want to see.
i do not want to think.
i do not want to hear.
and in fact, i do not want to know anymore.

i've choosen to step back.

i waited for months with a happy mind... just for the chance to see him and tell him.
but unfortunately, i did not have the chance to do so.
i came home with the most disappointed heart.
and today, i still feel the same.

i am back for a month.
and i thought i could hide away everything.
but .... i failed to do so.
the work has rubbed some salt on the irrecoverable scar.

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i'm really really tired.

working late... talking non stop...
and coming home to pack everything and to clear them is worse.
i must settle the room before i go on leave in july.
so little time.. so much to do.

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i still believe...

if i have the frustration at work.. that means i am still liking my job.

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i know you are going home...
but i think i will not be able to see you.

deep in my heart, i know i miss you... more than i thought....

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hereby, i declare my war with food.
i must lose the inches and kgs...
i beh tahan loh!

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my blog is turning 3 today.

honestly, if i don't have this blog, i won't be able to remember what had happened.
it was sad 3 years ago.
but today.. i'm just another ordinary girl on earth.. spending time... smiling, laughing..

i swear.. i just want to be that simple... and be happy.


dear blog, happy birthday.
thanks for being there for me for the past 3 years.

:)

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the day you stopped viewing this page told me...
you are no longer aware of my little thought.
and you want to stay away from me.

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