i am famous for being forgetful.
i can't remember much about the past.
i do not know why.
it could be the reason, the inner self choose not to remember the unhappy one.
or the memory faded off as time goes by.

i was putting my things on the new furnitures.
i found these v-day cards, bday cards, new year cards etc etc
when i opened up and read them, it reminds me of the past.
i wasn't sad.
but i was smiling....
telling myself, people move on.

over the conversation with a friend today, i brought up this name.
i was saying i am not seeing this person.
i do not want to see.
i do not want to think.
i do not want to hear.
and in fact, i do not want to know anymore.

i've choosen to step back.

i waited for months with a happy mind... just for the chance to see him and tell him.
but unfortunately, i did not have the chance to do so.
i came home with the most disappointed heart.
and today, i still feel the same.

i am back for a month.
and i thought i could hide away everything.
but .... i failed to do so.
the work has rubbed some salt on the irrecoverable scar.

Labels: princess' life, princess' thought