some of you may feel cold for the past few rainy days.
but yours truly is feeling superdupercold.

today i cried a little.
i know something is not right.
i feel so given up and the old thought came to me again.

i want to disappear.
i want to move on.
i want to smile.

but i can't.
i feel so cold.

i miss the days when i was sick, and my mom is there.
i miss the days when i was unhappy, and my mom is there.
i miss the days when i felt uncomfortable, and you are here.
i miss the days when i screwed up at work, and you are here.

but those are the past.
and i can never return.

she can no longer cook me the porridge.
she can no longer keep quiet and leave me alone.
you will no longer worry if i'm fine.
you will no longer care if i make it.

today i'm not any stronger.
but i have more to think about.

i'm still me.

Labels: princess' life, princess' thought